-blank-

byee

2007-12-04T01:13:00.000+11:00

so wave gdbye to this blog. cause another has opened.
ask for the url and it will be given.
cheerios~

2007-11-15T11:02:00.000+11:00

the end of a school year.
packing and ready to return to the place i call home.
saturday's the day. =)
cheers! to the hols.
time for R&R.
to those who still have papers left. all the best. i'm waiting. rather impatiently.

2007-10-27T22:06:00.000+10:00

the start of swot vac. start of revision. start ur engines.

this post. is dedicated. to. ida. who celebrates her 18th birthday today!!! -decorates the blog banners,streamers and the likes- FINALLY. hmm. i bet u must have been wondering why i haven't been showing any signs of remembering... well.. i like to give the impression that i forgot. not wishing u at the stroke of midnight was intentional. why would i want to fight with a line of ppl. haha u'll see why in a moment.

thanks for being there for me when i needed ya. -grins-

2007-10-20T19:48:00.000+10:00

the last of my assignments for the semester shall be shoved down the chute of no return on monday. and when that time arrives, yours truly will get nerdilicious. yum. right.

if u think about it. 3 months worth of holidays is definitely worth suffering 2 weeks for. good trade off? sounds like it. yet. i have to constantly remind myself how lucrative THAT sounds before i start slipping into my "get-me-out-of-here" frame of mind. lol.

i guess i'm gettin a couple readers apart from the identifiable ones. much to my surprise. lol. i can't complain. it's a public blog after all. it's amusing.. having people try to figure my love life and speculate about it.-.-form whatever conclusions if you insist. if you simply/desperately must know what's going on, drop me a message and i'll deliberate if you're worthy enough to access "kwann's skeleton closet".

other than that. please spare me. my confidants have their mouth sealed.and i trust them.loads.

for those that indulge in my short-comings. kwann's happy now.

sorry to disappoint.

happy bday

2007-10-10T16:55:00.000+10:00

u know the world's gone wacky when kwann and michelle starts handing in their assignments past the deadline. and. goes in 20 mins late for work. then again. i survived. unscathed.

in fact, the bosses were smiling as if i'd just told them they've won a million bucks. i guess it was probably hilarious watching me practically skid into the shop and explaining myself at the speed of some rap by eminem.

to michelle, if u're reading this. i'm glad ur persuasive power or whatever that was emitting from u, managed to mesmerize e ppl at the accounts dept into accepting our assignment. hehe. aw wells, at least we have now witnessed first hand how technology can fail us. to be more specific. my printer.

oh yes. to a certain AEN. happy birthday. happy 18th! u're semi-legal. ><. how would a hello kitty plush toy sound to you? hehe. just kiddin~. k i'll b serious here. i hope things work out well for you. it's nice having a lil stability in ur life doesn't it. full speed ahead!

hailstorm alert!friday's e day. watch the skies...

what chingy says IS pretty true. what doesn't kill you,makes you stronger. in fact, things' been well XD let's hope it stays this way for awhile.

i sense some1's cravings for pudding. you tut. for a couple of wks, i thought i was pretty non existent in ur life. let's head out for pudding again no? my treat. although i'm not head over heels with it. it's e company tt rocks. this hols is gonna b one big party.

2007-10-04T16:32:00.000+10:00

today wasn't particularly eventful. just wanted to make up for the lack of blog posts. the weather's been pretty nice(not e whole day round, but generally). for starters, u can actually feel the warmth of the sun ><.

placed my economics essay through the "slot of no return" yesterday.
will be doing likewise with finance tomorrow.
did my round of blog checks. and i see the frequency of posts starting to decline. HAH.
that's pretty indicative of everyone settling down nicely into their lives isn't it. or just plain busy.

been hearing of every1's wishlists. i'm tempted to create one of my own. lol it's been awhile since i last thought of my material wants(or rather. listed it out explicitly). hehe.
after all. the season for receiving giving is less than a quarter of a yr awayyyyy.

2007-09-30T18:17:00.028+10:00

today marks the last day of my holiday. which doesn't really seem like one, judging from the assignment pile.
but.
it has been wonderful nonetheless =).

exams will officially end on the. check this out. 14th!!!(of nov...) and i'm booked to fly on the 17th.. holler~~!! tons of catching up to do. clear your calendars coz kwann's heading back to town. soon.
ok.
mayb not that soon.
i'm pretty apologetic about the previous holiday. which. i will make up for.

did i mention that dad's here with me? how shall i put this. for a family reunion.or rather, to celebrate my mom's bday(awww.. the passion of love's still burning) hehe. this apartment's getting all nice and cosy.

dunno bout you guys, but i'm gettin kinda sick of my blogskin. all those in favour of blog revamp say "aye".

till then. study hard. cheers~e big hols ain't as far as it was .

speaking of which,i saw christmas cakes. YES. fruit cakes with an extremely thick layer of icing(not to mention the xmas tree indent.yep .tt's how i knew it was meant for christmas.). and now's. what. OCT?!

2007-09-17T23:37:00.010+10:00

sorry for the decreasing amount of blog posts despite it being the mid sem break.

monday was eventful.

because yours truly registered for my learner's permit!!!

so if all goes according to plan.

i'll pass theory and be on my little way to touching the steering wheel which i've waited 18 years for.

away with your sniggers regarding my delayed reaction concerning driving. =p. i'll be zooming with you guys in time to come. =)

oh btw, to booze drinkers out there. if u're a fan of fosters, heineken and what not, do give me a ring. our beer belly lecturer's making us analyse fosters and lion nathan. views and inputs r greatly welcome, cause i need to get my head around the fact that . beer's not just. beer. and. that multi-beverage scheme is, in actual fact a horrendous strategy. what's wrong with diversification?!?!

with all the complaints surrounding melb uni students being way too into booze, this assignment is definitely not helping. instead, it's just increasing our awareness of e diff kind of alochols out there.

waitin to be unravelled.

2007-09-08T16:29:00.000+10:00

i'm currently finding the missing link to our logical diagram. which doesn't make sense. although it's supposed to sound all logical. nat's busy cleaning her house. and we're both brain dead. =)

holidays coming up on the 15th of sept!
and the holiday package consists of....
4 subs=4 assignments.
no prizes for guessing what i'll spend hols doin.

apologies for not updating as often as i should.

2007-08-25T22:20:00.000+10:00

this post is dedicated to my fav dp. DEE. who made tennis fun and knocked sense into me when i was lacking it. happy 18th =)

i bought a bottle of orange juice today.

probably been years since i thought of having it in my fridge.

let alone on my table, or even in my cup.

last time it filled my cup was when i was in thailand and they ran out of apple juice at the breakfast table. -.-

but.......

you know what? it actually tastes pretty good.

so...revisit the oranges.

somethin else's tt's cool is calpico. carbonated milk thing. tastes almost like diluted yakult(e original) with. gas.

don't knock it till u've tried it.

u'd probably think i'm in a drunk stupor. with all e above promoting going on.
nah... lol

these few days have been pretty..odd. a blend of different feelings .

neway, tiny load of weight off my shoulders on wednesday. u'll b hearin none of e essay crap from me. *big grin*provided there isn't any more waiting around the corner. i'll just be left with assignments.

spring's on its way.

cheers

crappy

2007-08-21T14:52:00.000+10:00

first i'd like to start of with... i met ching's bro. n we had a nice brisk walk to school.(there. no need for rawrs.=p lol did u have a productive work out session?) visited his blog under the recommendation of his sis. one particular post struck and left an impact on me.it was pretty meaningful and kinda restored some of my faith in stuff.

alarm bells went off in my head when i didn't do as well as i hoped for on a 5% test( i noe, no biggie rite?)but still.. no excuses, time to buck up and take preventive measures against the domino effect.

so there's the remaining................. econs..........ata...... bpa... to be completed.

listened to my theme song. littlest things. now i know why u made it the "kwann song". makes perfect sense.sorry. best of luck with ur fav tauruses though..

i've developed a liking for mustard now. and my store's potato cakes.

i had a show down with my lady boss today. wild wild west style. she claimed i calculated some1's orders wrongly, coz they were using $8 coupons and stuff. i could almost feel the steam coming out of her ears. so we went through and added each item the conventional way. finger counting. and yours truly came out victorious. what happened to her? she kept quiet and walked away. after one semester i think i've finally gained her respect. she greets and thanks me now, which was a far cry from the grunts she gave me. so chalk up one for the commerce undergrads. i didn't let the faculty down.

2007-08-19T18:02:00.000+10:00

about time i update. don't wish to see this blog crumble like my previous ones.

went to work today. got paid an extra 10 as it was a weekend. today's melbourne uni's open house.to take advantage of that. they raised the prices of the food. 2nd time in one semester. and i swear 2mr i'll be getting tons of raised eyebrows.lol. mini inflation goin on.

economics essay due soon. seeking some inspiration. something. anything. fall out from the sky.

nightmares

2007-08-12T16:19:00.000+10:00

the repercussion of reading HP before you sleep.
a nightmare.
I(though a fry cry from HP himself) found myself with a wand in hand facing he-who-must-not-be-named. and VOLDEMORT. killed ginny. who was actually hermione. hm. it wasn't one of those visiting fairy tale dreams. this was death. to add on to the scare, i was served a skull with hantu like long hair for DINNER. was that supposed to be some nutritious pre battle food? i have no idea.
i joke about it now. but it was freaky.

trials and tribulations
will it ever lead to jubilation.

2007-08-05T16:05:00.000+10:00

k.upset describes this post well. this is a nice big red warning sign.i simply have had enough. i noe the extent i would go for a friend. and i'm starting to detest being taken advantaged of or trampled upon.

treat me the way you expect to be treated.

if u say u'll call. then call.
if u wld like a me to stick by you when your life takes a turn for the worse. then be there when mine occurs.

last but not least.
please mean what you say.

ok

2007-08-01T20:01:00.000+10:00

today's call with papa.

dad:" how r u?"
me:" i'm ok"
dad:"but u don't sound ok, don't lie if u aren't ok"
me:"mm...well.....what if i'm not ok then?"
dad:" then make it ok"

freezing cold

2007-07-31T18:31:00.000+10:00

we're halfway into winter i reckon.
darkness approaches fast.
6pm here is pretty much equivalent to 10pm in singapore.
needless to say, it's freezing.
as for school. tutorials are starting up this week.
yep.i'm working at the same place.(price increment, unfortunately not reflected in my pay. lol bucket of fries now cost 2.80. wedgest 3.50 without sourcream/ sweet chilli that cost and extra
60cents. each)
had a much delayed conversation ystd. it's good to have u around once again. funny how life throws us into a strikingly similiar situation. gr8 isn't it.=p . can hardly wait to see the outcome.

because i've got nothing to lose.

loving the song "almost here"

mom's whipping up beef stew =) perfecto.

2007-07-24T19:34:00.000+10:00

i'm back where i belong.

6 hours and 25 minutes away from singapore.

melbourne.

anyways,something worth bloggin about.

my mom messed up the timing of the flight!!! (hehe and i thought she was always perfecto.oops)

we kinda assumed we were taking a night flight( and the ticket guy told us that as well. IF we had stopped stonin and started double checking our tickets,eh hem. 0900 actually meant 9AM. so yup. u could have imagined.

my heart dropped( and i thought my heart cldn't take anythin else).

we were on the standby list which was a nail biting experience.

but thank gdness. we were allowed on the 9pm flight. and away we go.

melbourne's startin to feel like a 2nd home.

somewhere i'm getting really comfortable with.
attended my first finance lecture!
i feel so small and insignificant.
with all that jargon thrown at me.
new things to get my head around.
honestly. i'm quite psyched up.
to learn and grow intellectually.
maybe one day i'll be able to understand all those academic journal.
or better still. WRITE one.

about that verdict.
i'm still alive.
not jumping over the moon or anythin.
but.the show must go on.

it's time to fix and mend the broken vase=)

2007-07-20T00:36:00.000+10:00

Amazing what a few weeks can bring.

the end finally nearing.

I've been through all sorts of emotions.

Yes, some of you may have been fed up listenin to me.

i'm startin to get death threats.yikes. lol JK.

just a hunch.

but hey. self improvement. i'm gonna be a better listener.

coz i finally realise how it feels,

when something gets u really down.

whoever said life was the slightest bit stable and predictable can go kick themselves.=p

i'm leaving on monday.

pretty neutral about going back.

sunday's either going to be pure joy or just plain. nvm.

lesson of e day: feelings aren't as straight forward as we would like them to be. that's why, we have that something on tv. dramas.

friday the 13th

2007-07-13T21:49:00.000+10:00

friday the 13th.
it doesn't scare.
get me if u dare.
cause honestly, i just don't care.

when life gets you down. you can't help but imagine how you ever got so paranoid over the trivial things. take friday the 13th for example.
secondary sch.
i have my friend running around hysterically like road runner*beep beep*, going on about friday the 13th.
get this scenario.
*knocks my table, i'm studying like a guai prefect*"omg kwannnnnnnnnn(i know my name is short. thks for elongating it.) guess what day is it todayyy???!!! die. die . die" *eyes widen*.
okay.
catch my thought process alright.
it's friday..........(2mr's e weekend)...and....
*looks at the black/white board(updated one of course)*
SHIT. FRIDAY THE 13th..
*joins my friend to chant die.die. die.*
and we spend the day going.
DAMN why did this happen?!?!
friday the 13th lor.
ya lor.
omg why so suay?!?! #$&#*%^%$
don't worry.
we'll live....*punches fist in the air*
and miracuously. we did.

NOW.
couple of years down the road. facing my biggest headache yet.
someone comes up:"hey kwann. did u noe it's friday the 13th?"
me: "so.?" *walks out the door without noticing the hugeee black cat about to cross my path*
now that's what i call STYLE. right -.-.

okay people. those up for a horror movie.give me a buzz. my heart can take it now.

10 days.

It was a promise made a long time ago.
would you like to bury it like it never existed?

for those who care. root for me =)

first mystery

2007-07-10T23:53:00.000+10:00

let me announce to the world that "pride" soundtrack rocks.
ryo yoshimata is a musical genius.
or perhaps.
it sounds great because there's something i can relate to.
i can feel my mind gettin stimulated like the visualizer we have on itunes or perhaps bouncing about like the musical fountain in sentosa. lol
was sharing with ching how initially we might not take a liking to a particular song until we watch.. let's say. a show?
mystery of life about the be unveiled ppl.
because we can finally tie in our emotions with it.
therefore,
understand something. to love something. there u go!
that's where u see the beauty of it. materialize in front of ur own pair of eyes or ears.whichever suits.

ching reckons the only people that will ever fully appreciate band music. are well. BAND PPL. wow. why ching?!?! why oh why. because it's meaningful. sharing the day with you was an absolute blast. gd buddy in melb. likewise in sg. thks for sticking by me. mayb one day i just might try the "big sophia".keep up the fighting spirit. i'll keep mine up as well. oh. the agony.

results1

2007-07-07T19:24:00.001+10:00

got my results back.
yup i did well.
or at least. to my standards.
which i feel really relieved about, judging by all that stuff on my mind.
no repeats necessary.
and even received an offer to the so called "high scoring students" to consider another subject, similiar to history of ideas. economics style. which i can't fit in.aw wells.
so. cools! something aspects of my life are going alrite.

and of course,
to miss ida tan.
thks for those smses.=)
yes, u surprised me by remembering about the results date.
some1's changed.
but yep. it was great hearing from u.
work hard=P
i know you're a good girl.

before i turn emo again.
i'm ending on a happy note.

2007-07-05T20:11:00.000+10:00

results tomorrow.
the fruits of my so called labour.
i would love to say that nothing can affect my studies.
i guess it's a wait and see situation.
i like studying. it's something you can put in all effort and actually receive pretty reasonable results for your hardwork. =)
Money? ah. that can never betray you can it?the only thing that can go wrong is. well. abusing it for instance.
Yet why do we seek something that could potentially change and shift as the world is revolving each day? beats me.
who would have thought that i could defy all logic.
rational inputs by everyone around me, they go unheard.
simply because.
because.i would very much prefer not to spell it out.
i'm waiting for my senses to return.
damn.where did it disappear to.
doggie suggested to blog it all out.
i still can't bring myself to have a "tell all" blog.

guess my dear readers will have to be contented with reading between the lines.

my life's a riddle that i myself can't solve.

yet.will i laugh and smile when i finally do?

17 days

2007-07-03T20:09:00.000+10:00

time for an update. 20 days till i return to a place. i don't noe if i can call it home. or ever call it home. i love melb. i won't deny that. just. for now,i'd rather stay here for awhile. i need a time extension.

i'm sitting here.
waiting for inspiration to hit me.
motivation to drive me.
passion to lift me.

lunch with dee was great. chatting away. slurping my cold soba. thanks for everything. for keeping it real. for the nice snacks.=) bestest doubles partner in the universe.

results on friday. bleahx.

a joke

2007-06-24T21:31:00.000+10:00

here's a joke. to brighten up the blog a lil. too much emo is no good for e heart or soul. lol unfortunately. try telling that to me. enjoy it. it brought at least 5 mins of joy to me. i hope it'll generate a similar or even better effect on u guys. enjoy=)

A pastor entered his donkey in a race and it won.

The pastor was so pleased with the donkey that he entered it in the race again, and it won again.The local newspaper read: 'PASTOR'S ASS OUT FRONT'.

The Bishop was so upset with this kind of publicity that he ordered the pastor not to enter the donkey in another race.

The next day, the local newspaper headline read: 'BISHOP SCRATCHES PASTOR'S ASS'.

This was too much for the bishop so he ordered the pastor to get rid of the donkey. The pastor decided to give it to a nun in a nearby convent.

The local paper, hearing of the news, posted the following headline the next day: 'NUN HAS BEST ASS IN TOWN'.The bishop fainted. He informed the nun that she would have to get rid of the donkey, so she sold it to a farmer for $10.

The next day the paper read: 'NUN SELLS HER ASS FOR $10'.

This was too much for the bishop, so he ordered the nun to buy back the donkey and lead it to the plains where it could run wild.

The next day the headlines read: 'NUN ANNOUNCES...HER ASS IS WILD AND FREE'.

The bishop was buried the next day....

The moral of the story is... being concerned about public opinion can bring you much grief and misery ....and even shorten your life.So be yourself and enjoy life..... You'll be a lot happier and live longer.

still

2007-06-23T01:40:00.000+10:00

for those of u who still bother with my blog.
sorry for not updating as much as i used to.
what more can i actually say. without being emo?
i'm not emo-in for the sake of gettin attention.
just need an outlet.
loads of outlets.
i feel like a balloon with too much helium.

i guess no one will really noe wad i'm going thru unless they feel it for themselves.
so i'm not expecting much.
there is only so much some1 can take with regards to a problem not relating to them.

to think this is just the beginning.bleahx.

if any gd came out of this. it would b finding out who my true friends are.
or whose tolerance for me is the highest. lol

face the music

2007-06-17T19:07:00.000+10:00

back to face the music.
there's still a long way before i can say i've actually achieved anything.
i guess it's e small lil things tt count. being extravagant probably has a lesser impact.
tt's lesson learnt no.1.
but, being a bit spontaneous did have some effect.didn't it?

holidays had nv felt so crucial.

a dear ol fren commented tt i've changed.i guess i'm finally lettin some skeletons fall out of the closet.it feels gd. yet, i still have to maintain a distance from many.i can't possibly be completely honest with all tom dick n harry, or mimi or lulu.there's still a couple more who deserve to noe.

time might be able to heal all emo wounds but i doubt it can do the same for regrets.

today's father's day:
decided to treat my parents to lunch(no. it wasn't stuff from e foodcourt.what do u take me for. lol. the word is =r.e.s.t.a.u.r.a.n.t) with money that i've earned[i like the sound of it (=]. my baby step to repaying all that they hav done for me. dessert was on dad though.hehe.oops.

eos

2007-06-08T17:05:00.000+10:00

end of semester exams are over for me!
finally.
if all goes well.
i'll pass 4 subjects.
get my credits.
move on. graduate in time.
my blog's been collecting digital cobwebs. i noe.
basically. the word is abstain.
couldn't handle the distraction.
it was bad enough lettin my mind go wild on its own.

i have one mission when i get back to sg.
means the world to me.

started playing with my rubik's cube =)

i'm flying home on monday.i miss a whole bunch of people.i still get tt tingling feeling of excitement thinkin about goin back. even though it has already been a yr since i've left the comforts of my home in sg.

for entertainment purposes. i've decided to put this up(the whole chunk of words). courtesy of michelle(thks a bunch for everythin u've done for me,taking care of me when i was at my wits end, n helpin me out with business law).

this has NOTHING. i repeat. nothing to do with law exams held over at melb uni. it was just some goofy practice questions she came up with.which i found extremely entertaining.so ppl. LAW EXAM!! year 2007!! check it out:

DISCLAIMER: This is meant to be a joke! These questions will NOT. i repeat. NOT appear in the exams! don't go to ur LLB exam preparing such answers. lol

FIRST YEAR LLB EXAM 2007

Instructions: Read each question carefully. Answer any ONE question.Time limit: 2 hours. Begin immediately.
(This examination is a hurdle requirement to pass law)

1. You are the defense council for Osama Bin Laden. Convince the judge(s) and jury to acquit your client from all charges which relates to terrorism, genocide, crimes against humanity, and any other war crimes. The honorary menbers of the jury will include, but are not limited to: George Bush, Tony Blair, and John Howard.[i sense doommmm. who can we convince?gee.]
You will be given 30 mins[err 30mins?rite....] to prepare before presenting your case in the International Criminal Court.

2.Discuss in detail the legal issues involved in the trial of David Hicks. You are to include all possible political, social, economic influences/considerations leading to and up to the date of verdict. Also include your view on whether you Hick guilty. Be prepared to prove the validity of your stance with evidence taken from the crime scene and statements taken from interrogation, accuracy of the facts is crucial. Be specific and comprehensive in your answer.
Word limit: 1000 (marks will be deducted for exceeding the word limit)[lol seriously. 1000 words is NOT enough. have u seen the newspaper articles?!?!failure's just a word away LLB students...be very very afraid]

3. ʽSince the founding of the modern state in 1932, Thailand has had 17 charters and constitutions, reflecting the high degree of political instability and frequency of military coups faced by the nation... Thailand's last permanent constitution - called the ʽPeopleʼs Constitutionʼ was promulgated in 1997.ʼ
Prepare a Thai Constitution for the current military leaders. It should preferably[as if there's a choice] be written in Thai[wth!!!in thai?!?!?!thai LLB students have an advantage.did melb uni hire a thai translator?i hope they did.cause they need one.], and according to the will of the leaders. (Any unforeseen circumstances, including injury or death, are not the responsibility of the Law School)

end of exam! best of luck=)

cheryl's mad

2007-05-25T19:50:00.000+10:00

exam's r coming. so ppl hav a natural tendency to go nuts.

_______cHeRyL_______ the rhapsody & philosophy of life... carpe diem! says:
see ya
Kwann says:
hello
Kwann says:
this is cheryl speaking to cheryl
Kwann says:
kwann is cooking
Kwann says:
ching is singing off tune
Kwann says:
hahahah
Kwann says:
i feeel mad today
Kwann says:
i am msn-ing with myself
Kwann says:
eh..., cheryl, why u never reply arh
Kwann says:
i realised... cheryl is "kwann"

thanks

2007-05-25T11:30:00.000+10:00

sane for the moment.
thks.

exams are in 10 days.
need to get my priorities straight.

dad' coming on wed.=)

let's be literal

2007-05-22T16:07:00.000+10:00

i burnt a hole in my pocket.
not literally of course.
a nice lady pointed tt fact to me.
she cldn't b more direct.
bet her thought process was:"what are u thinkin?!?!"
waiting for me to get enlightened.
which i nv did.
n e funny thing was. it just didn't matter.
it was worth it.
so much for hoi and econs where we are all assumed to b rational people.
for the time being, i don't fit into the whole rational thing.

the things i do amaze me.

a tribute

2007-05-21T19:13:00.000+10:00

first of all. i apologize for rantin alot lately.
but i'm eternally grateful.
the words of encouragement. the msges.
the long distance call.(to sing me to slp.lol)
for those who put up with me.
it pulled me frm the dumps i must say.
i'm feeling even more determined.
to "go for my life."

e prob's gonna take awhile to solve.
so do have some patience with me.

my parents did the swtest thing in e world.
and at the perfect timing.
mom bought me a rubik's cube in sg.
the one i previously declared i wanted (a couple of entries away)
she's gonna hav my dad bring it over=)
for that moment,i felt like a kid again.
a happy one.

so let this b a tribute to all u peeps who care for me.
i love u and if ever ,*touch wood,sand,water* u encounter wad i'm goin thru.
i'll b there in a jiffy, i swear.

crash and burn

2007-05-18T18:01:00.000+10:00

i got my moto back and its workin fine.thk gdness.
i know i seem really down lately. n it is increasingly difficult to maintain my emotions.
some of u wld noe/hav a hint on wad i'm goin thru.
thks a million for hearin me out.

exams are nearing, this shldn't b a time to break down.

doggie's right. a post everyday IS incredible.

let's just say i feel as though a nuclear bomb decided to go off in my life.

i need to type things down.
this is e perfect place to reflect on my own words.

contrary to wad many think, it has nothin to do about my mom not being here. i miss her, but tt's not the crux of my problem.

i'm still in the process of digesting all these stuff and mustering strength to get by.get stronger.prepare myself.

i hav a few buddies who i can count on. i think they are gettin drinks as i type.
i need to disconnect frm my mind for awhile.

n no, i don't concede defeat. i nv wanted to b labelled as a quiter. n i don't intend to b one in e near future either.i've always tried to fight for wad i believe/want.

frm now on i'll slp at 12. pls shoot me if u see me online. i'll whine. but i'll b grateful to u later.
distractions r always welcomed.
hugs and squeezes are cool. i nv used to seek solace in tt. but it is true tt the human touch possess some amazing powers.

for the curious. i wld love to tell. get a load of my chest. but it's very personal.
did i cry? err.

chef in e making's menu: jap curry

on e flipside. i think i've grown a hell lot from secondary sch. somethin tt i can b proud of.

fightin

2007-05-17T16:54:00.000+10:00

Kwann Chareon has no affinity with HPs.
i just got my current one less than a mth ago.look wad happens.it CONKED out again.
it's currently resting at the moto care shop for some TLC tt i apparently can't give. so i'm contactless.again.

anyways went on my lil adventure to find the moto care shop.i'm proud of myself. for realising tt shop numbers run in order. odd on one side, even on the other.haha
had great company along the way eh ching chai?i'm sorry u hav all my contacts on ur hp. even the forbidden ones.
my dear fren commented bout my blog."hmm....u shld blog more often"
me:but i do!!
CC:when i mean often, i mean everyday.
me:(keeps quiet)
alrite alrite. chronicles of my life is gonna get reasonably updated.

back to where i left off. cookin session was a success. i can officially survive on my own cookin. no more saying kwann can't cook. burn hot water.blah blah.if yan can cook. kwann CAN cook too.

i've decided to fight for it.
no pt sittin around lamenting.
i just need tt ounce of strength and confirmation that this is exactly what i want.
i apologise for e previous entries. but i'm not gonna delete them despite the urge to.it serves as a reminder how emotionally vulnerable i can be. n mayb somethin tt i can look back n shake my head about.

messy.

2007-05-16T16:47:00.000+10:00

i hav too many stuff swimming around in my head.
i guess tt explains y i woke up at 4am last night.
i shld stop thinkin bout "what ifs"/ e numerous possibilities, esp since it hasn't happened, but focus on the situation at hand.
makes it a bit easier.
i think.
it's odd. i'm typin it all out here.
to convince myself?probably.

i wanna slp well.

doggie said my previous post was drippin with sarcasm. lol. i didn't mean for it to be tt way,or worse still,offend any1.i hav a very weird sense of humour.i apologise for tt.

btw. 1st attempt at cookin. and no. i'm not using stuff frm a packet. it's frm scratch.

i try to live the best i can

2007-05-15T16:44:00.000+10:00

i'm finally taking baby steps to independence.
movin fwd in life on my own.
cleanin up after myself.
being responsible.

they say silence can be deafenin. i guess i can vouch for tt now.u try it.

it's funny(in a non comedy way)
when i think about stuff.
i can't conclude how i feel or what i want.
we're supposed to fight for ourselves.
yet, i'm basically stuck at the decision hurdle.
tryin to decide what exactly to fight for.
it's frustratin.

shout outs
nat: thx for bein there for me. really appreciate the company =) get well or i'll drown u in tea.will send u e 101 photos.

ching cai:buddy...... u're like my 1800 hotline.woots~.HOT! frosties rocks.

i'm havin probs with my moto. it currently has mood swings.it doesn't respond i when try pressin my keys.or i'tll basically get wacky.

so if i don't reply. 2 explanations.

i'm seriously avoidin u, or i simply can't reply.

let's hope it's e latter

lectures

2007-05-10T17:05:00.000+10:00

for the first time in my life. i overslpt and missed a lecture.

i guess either my hp decided to abandon me, or basically i just slpt thru the whole alarm thing.

woke up. sat and stared at the clock for a gd 30 secs thinkin" this can't b happenin".
hm. who was i tryin to deceive.

anyway. it feels like crap.

and for once , i was told
the lecture was pretty fascinating.

D week

2007-05-09T09:27:00.000+10:00

i shld refrain from making comments about "doing a gd job on updating my blog". frankly, i don't think a wk cld be considered as constant updating. i don't wan this blog to cease like my previous ones. anyway i'm returning to sg pretty soon.11th to b exact. which is nicely smack in e middle of e sg hols.pretty excited. new stuff waiting for me(ie new rm which will b left in e hands of mom to decorate), ppl to catch up with. slack time.chilli crab(one of my failed missions).

i might miss melb.
don't ask me why.

then again, i'm pretty apprehensive about goin back. since i've left some stuff to clear up.

meanwhile. there's exams n assignments due.so. cut me some slack on updates k. unless u wanna hear about how i try to study.

cards n such

2007-05-01T22:57:00.000+10:00

a card was waitin for me in my mailbox.n again, wacky smile appears. from my favourite doubles partner(DEE). in fact. one and only=).

snippets of wad i did on e tennis courts came flashing back. in retrospect, i can't believe i was TT mad on e courts. but i noe i probably was. singin, being a lame-o, n dancin(gosh. r u sure i did tt "love actually dance"). but eitherways, those were fantastic times. putting a smile on ur face.=) n i'm glad i left some sort of an impression on u. LOL even though i might regret it later. hehe.eh hem.tennis was nv as interesting till we bcame partners. HAHA

i miss u too.visit me soon=)

random stuff: widgets are pretty cool. ( i went to econs tutorial, got enlightened about it, although it has no relation to econs wadsoeva. hehe)

i think i'm doin a pretty gd job at updating e blog.

history repeats

2007-04-28T20:08:00.000+10:00

i've done it again.
it's funny how i don't appreciate or learn to accept something tt would probably put in a whole lot of effort to ensure i'm happy and protected.
i guess some things aren't meant to be.
sorry.

assignments piling faster than i can plough through them.

desire:
1.a rubik's cube. they used to b EVERYWHERE(now i can't find one). so much for paying attention during QM lecture.lol
2. spider man 3

it fills up my mind

2007-04-23T22:30:00.000+10:00

okays. a few shoutouts.

oli:buddy ol pal. u remembered! i miss our mahjong sessions.anyway, i guess every1 has to let go of certain stuff at some pt or another. wad's meant to be ours will b ours rite?(sometimes i wonder if this all these sayings are just mere consolation.hm). hang in there. i'll b bac.

emmy: thks babe. for actually snail mailing me a handwritten card. gosh, i dunno how u found my aussie address. but eitherways, u can't imagine the big grin on my face when i saw ur card in my mailbox. i rarely see u online. so i really hope u'll come across this post. btw. u forgot to write a return address!!! next time. DHL or FEDEX urself over instead. lol

dory aka ah chee: i'm in need of my personal dictionary. i miss our "philosophical" chats. i hope u're doin well =).n yes, i considered buying pokemon diamond recently. but other commitments are beckoning. gosh. come online at MY time.pls. lol.

annoucement:
new hp no. finally. holler if u wan it. n pls pls delete e old no. sry for the trouble. i just bcame contactable again. =)

random stuff:
if any1 can suggest somethin tt has the ability to last forever in mint condition, let me noe. doesn't matter who u r.

my 18th

2007-04-21T23:12:00.000+10:00

the 18th which i thought was gonna be relatively quiet, rocked.
who cares if it rained.

dad rmbed=)
had a wonderful afternoon with mom at docklands=)

evening was fantastic.bcoz i had a gr8 bunch of ppl tt rulez. korean bbq. e surprise cake n stuff. and hot CHOCO(choco mel) at max's.

it's time to express my gratitude to all u peeps(alpha order k):
Calister- for e ecard, blog dedication n prize for e 1st person to wish me belongs to u.*gives certificate*
Cheryl & Ching- masterminds for e pressie n all. so swt of u guys to rmb.hehe
Dajie- for the cute "i love u" froggie which is now resting on the ledge of my study
Dee-the flowers and comment.coolest DP
Germ- for slappin me and snappin so many "vain" shots of me
Ida- for e nice big wish in CAPS
Mel-for the uber cool mug and takin time out frm ya bz schedule to hav dinner with me.
Nat- for suggestin dinner when i was in "emo" stage.lol if it weren't for u, i might have decided to continue stonin. *sticks out tongue*
Polar bear- For the warm wishes online
Sam- for tryin to be the very last person to wish me. LOL congrats. u cheaterbug.yes yes Collegehouse
Sha- the one who has the longest record for rmbin my bday since pri sch. swtheart as always.
Shimin- for being the big bro of the day. and drawing up the conclusion about my eyebrows!arhhh.....
Van- for letting me know wad "heaven" n "hell" is ;)muahhahaha

thks a bunch for e various comments( i find it odd they call it comments) on friendster.

to the various anonymous ppl who wished me via sms. i'm SO SRY. my hp vibrates but my lcd screen is blank. i'm not deliberately avoiding any1 of u. for those tt received a reply, it just so happened tt ur sms cld b viewed with mom's hp. LOL thks ash, shuk n jeff.

if i missed out some1. argh. i hope not. u're not any less impt alrites? recallin ppl's names at midnight is a bit tough. lol. i give u permission to clobber me.

haha ppl. PLEASE delete my number. i feel pretty upset everytime it vibrates n i can't do anythin about it.

i'm officially legal.=)

darn. PICS!!! haha any1 gd at resizing?

hols poof

2007-04-15T22:05:00.000+10:00

sch begins.
new obstacles.
bring it on.

yikes.

rpg

2007-04-13T18:34:00.000+10:00

life's like a RPG game(role playin game) on any game console.eg final fantasy.
we battle the monsters. we have a goal. achievement is measurable. in order to level up, devotion and training's required.

then again....
minus the cool effects.cool hair.

and of course. a reset button.

i try living life without a desire to hit the reset button.

it has been confirmed. mom is indeed goin back. e game just got a bit more interesting hasn't it.
time to be independent. man i'm kinda startin a bit late aren't i.it still sucks anyway.but i'll come out stronger. if not dead. lol

when e world topples over

2007-04-12T17:38:00.000+10:00

ever had tt feeling like ur world's been crushed. i just had my turn.like the snowball in the crash bandicoot game.gets bigger n bigger. stuff after stuff, nothing seems to b goin right. n yesterday was the crux.i slipped up again.i'm so sick of doin tt.in retrospect, i realised how unnecessary it was.( i shld thk ky for puttin it in perspective, a bit too late though)i wonder how long it'll take for me to stabalize myself. hopefully by e end of e hols. i apologize for bein emo. it muz b odd for those who know me pretty well,seeing me rant tt often or even hav so many entries in such a short span of time.my blog just became interesting huh. i realise emo ppl have the most fascinating n most read blog.

like ching said what doesn't kill u will only make u stronger.

thks a bunch to those who were concerned about me.

weird stuff

2007-04-12T17:35:00.000+10:00

Got tagged by Ida to do this.(hope u’re doin fine) So since I’m on hol, I’ll give it a go =).

Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

WEIRD THINGS

Under no circumstances can I sleep without a blanket. Even if I’m in e sahara desert, I would still need one. In e event where I’m forced to go without a blanket, u can bet ur life that I’ll be tossing n turning. Get this. Turtle without shell.
Stuff that I would love to do and will always remain a favourite are……. Theme parks, board games, computer games, etc etc. I’m always up for it. I know I shld grow up, but I can’t.
thin fries can be eaten plain by itself. Fat fries would require ketchup, chilli etc etc. In other words, thin fries rule.
What I like about close relationships is the ability to go silent without having the feeling of awkwardness. To be frank, I haven’t been able to do that with many ppl. In my mind I’ll b like, “am I boring u?”. Stoning together should be an activity in itself
I tend to order the same stuff in restaurants or wherever. If I like a certain something, 70% of the time u’ll see me requesting for the same thing. I like to stick to my comfort zone when it comes to food.
When alcoholic drinks come into the picture, a) or b) would occur.
a) I’ll laugh really easily and quite frequently.
b) I’ll get really slpy and quiet.eventually, I’ll fall asleep.

Okays. Time to tag 6 others.not compulsory peeps, give it a go if u have ample time.
Calister
Shamayne
Olivia
Natali
Chingster
Cheryl

mid sem break. happy hols!

2007-04-06T09:35:00.000+10:00

one will nv nv nv dislike hols.. it's like a law to love it. had a really awesome start to the hols. chingster, cheryl n i crashed nat's place(with permission) AND we were wildly impressed by the layout, furnishing etc etc. i'm probably making an accurate statement for C&C, i had the feeling we all wanted to change our address immediately.lol. i mean, cool robo vacuum cleaner, COOL TV,comfy sofa, what more cld i ask for. we shld start applying PR for her place. but of course, those material stuff didn't matter(haha who am i kiddin) as much as the company. played cards. BRIDGE & AS*HOL* dai dee.. shld totally thk van for droppin by or e toilet department wldn't exist. and who cld forget SOUTH PARK. tt's one of e reasons y i love melb. unlimited south park...cartman rules-grins-. great day. let's do it again soon! i've got the president title waiting for me. someone's being hogging it for wayyyyy too long.

it's gd keepin urself bz, gr8 way to forget about e depressing stuff. i hope tuesday goes well-cross fingers-

have a wonderful break peeps.

sometimes we question our fate

2007-04-04T21:31:00.000+10:00

received some news from my cousin in arizona. far from good.it just puzzles me, of all ppl in the world, why him. someone who wasn't given the best start in life, finally about to settle into his new life only to get hit in the face. He has always been the big brother i looked up to. some1 who lived with me for 7 years. taking care of the baby me, reading me to sleep and putting up with me barging/crawling into his room as n when i fancied. the one who gave me the scar on my forehead and till now,still feels guilty about it when he looks at me.( i nv held it against u, it was my fault.besides, it's not tt visible. i feel like harry potter without the wand)

it sucks not being able to do anythin for u. i noe words may sometimes be worthless.we all have the ability to type stuff even without meaning it. but from the bottom of my heart, i'll always be behind u.mom n dad as well.so never lose faith duberdeh( i wonder if u rmb this word).

ketchup

2007-03-29T23:15:00.000+10:00

just handed in all e assignments due this wk so... bloggin time.

this entry is totally inspired by sha's aka shaney aka pri sch pal blog! arhh... omurice. argh.i miss sg.although omurice originates frm japan n all, isetan shaw has the bestest omurice!!! no clue how it looks like? imagine ketchup fried rice wrapped in egg!!! u'll nv nv nv find it in melb.(i think). either tt or i'm just not looking hard enuf. tempuras,cold soba,omurice, jap curry... shamayne. i wish u'll make a bento for me(airmail it just in time for my bday.ehem.21st april). not in ur dreams but in REALITY.hahaha.............. idiot. i noe u wldn't.

anyways speakin of ketchup. i can't live without it. hehe. goes well with fries and loads of other stuff. of course, not forgettin omurice. my mom doesn't like it when i hav ketchup with fries. she'll go all:"ewww, chilli's e way to go". n yes, chilli is pretty gd. but i'm faithful to ketchup.hehe.apparently she thinks it's baby's food. i rmb e days she tried forcin me to try chilli with my happy meal, till i finally relented n did so when i was like 10( yes yes, i noe of some 5 yr olds tt cld handle chilli with their happy meals).erm well, welcome to australia where mac's chilli sauce is non existent.

heh i just remembered. shamayne, u were a ketchup freak like me till u turned 13 or so rite? hehe i think. n oli's still in the whole" i can't take tt much chilli" stage. lol it's nice growin up with u guys since age 11.

rain rain go away.

2007-03-23T21:48:00.000+11:00

i was kinda lookin forward to the MUOSS night market. for various reasons.
1. i wld hav handed in my most of my assignments.
2. it IS a friday.
3.i had such a great time in e same event last yr.

but i guess is shldn't keep this habit of visualizing wad the day wld b like, since it usually turns out completely different. it rained. yes RAIN. which, if u told me it was gonna pour in the morning, i wld have totally thought u're a complete nutcase.lol. but nonetheless, i had quite a nice time.

hung out with cheryl. hehe whom i finally managed to drag out of the house. -yay-n went grocery shoppin with her. she thought i was bored, but she was SO WRONG. weird, probably, but i kinda enjoy accompanying ppl. HAHA even if it is doin somethin u find utterly mundane. EVEN if u hav nothin much to say.i hardly ever get bored. it's e company tt matters. as long as i consider u a pal. haha

the season for emo is around. every1(or rather, my gd pals) seems to be unhappy bout somethin.n after tryin to cheer them up, inevitably, i get a lil down myself. haha gosh, imagine if i took up a job being some counsellor, will i b perpetually unhappy? keke..neway to my dear dear frens, if u wanna talk about somethin, no matter how ridiculous it is, just double click kwann on ur msn.

step into e real world

2007-03-20T23:40:00.000+11:00

yosh... i think i've yet to announce.. since there is no point hiding it..... i have a part time job! haha like omg. who can ever imagine kwann. the supposedly spoilt brat tt can't cook to save a person's life, getting a job. but peeps. it's TRUE. head on down to "uni catch"(haha i didn't noe e name till chingster told me) and confirm ur suspicions. if u're lucky, i just might serve u.i give extra fries to my frenz(oh crap. hope e lao ban niang doesn't see this)haha. pay's pretty gd, comparing it to sg n all. as to WHY i'm workin. i figured tt in e real world, experience is so so so valuable. n obviously i have to start somewhere.ppl in aussie are like currently having job no.3 stuff. PLUS PLUS. the pay is gd.i m officially a gd n worthwhile investment in e eyes of mom n dad for e time being

haha. i love e life i have now.i think i'm really starting to grow up.mature.or wadeva.

econs is confusing. although it's fun in a sense. i will nv nv nv nv major in econs. EVER. mark my words.

i miss mary the accounts teacher. everytime i step into the dreaded, dull uni lecture,i can't help but think about the laughs i had in trinity's lectures. i mean mary had me in stitches. right now. the lecturer constantly making me drift to lala land. if i ever decide to teach, i wanna b just like her. jokes all day. we need them.laugh ppl laugh. BANANAs n TEDDYS are the way to go..

btw. sry. no discounts on food.HAHA. apparently i have to charge u 20cents if u wan another fork. PLUS 30cents for extra sauce(yes, they RAISED the price).be warned. or else lao ban niang will chase and strangle u with her apron. haha

the power of supply and demand

2007-03-06T23:03:00.000+11:00

my msn and internet has been quite cranky these few days. sorry to those that I cldn’t reply and an advance apology to those tt i will not reply.hah. k i got tt covered. 2nd wk of sch has just begun. rite now i'm tryin to strike a balance between studyin n er.kwann time.

met a couple of new frenz. it was great chatting and getting to noe each and every1. their diff perspective of life n so forth. of course some encounters with ppl weren't all tt pleasant. i realise the no. of ppl feignin"know-it-all" is prominent in melb uni.(yes yes we noe u guys are like top students frm whereever u come frm, 99.8% average?! or designed some sch software or wadeva) which is kind of hilarious actually, i mean,.have they no clue tt they r annoying the heck out of other students? especially when they are clearly giving wrong statements. surely with all tt "knowledge" u wld have picked up tact along the way.haha i get complains everyday about them.

moving on, this yr i've decided to join to very "duuhhh" clubs. not tt they are lame.it seems so unadventerous of me to choose them. u cld probably guess " singapore students society(SSS)" & "international commerce society". but b4 u can conclude tt i'm lazy. instant message me online and i'll tell u y i've chosen to b slack on activities. haha anyway SSS was pretty cool, we had a buffet n all. SG food. although i cldn't tell tt a particular dish as carrot cake till some1 informed me. so by right, we were eatin melb modified sg stuff. which FINALLY had a spicy kick to it. so no complains frm me. i probably ate up more that wad i paid for my membership fee.

last but not least, congrats to cali on gettin into her first choice.see. nothin to wry about.cheers!

pictures!!!

2007-02-19T22:17:00.001+11:00

heys! settling down in melb now.. finished doin a bunch of paper work, tomorrow, the real deal begins. hands on stuff like bush dancing(sounds like bollywood doesn't it), amazing race n all..time to work the freshmen to the bone. anyone who has chosen e 1st yr majors:accounts,finance,economics & business law for their commerce degree, pls let me know, we could be tutorial or lecture mates! haha.

ok.. now on to the pictures.here's a pic of my study. where i wld spend my time muggin my ass off..haha looks messy doesn't it. all my orientation stuff!! once i'm done, i'll erm. sort it out.haha

my student diary, which is. ORANGE in colour! woohoo~.. i don't get the theme of it.but who cares. it's orange.

the logo of melb uni. for tkgs ppl.. doesn't it remind u of somethin at the foyer?!?it's the spirit of tkgs with WINGS...actually not really.. but they sure are graceful aren't they.

last but not least. my fav momento frm trinity!!! the biggest pic of the intake framed up at my study area, so i can reminisce bout college.try n spot me.haha i think u'll hav to come personally to the rm. surprisingly almost all faces can b seen really clearly, unless u happen to b lookin down or somethin.

so tt's it! more photos to come...

down

2007-02-12T00:36:00.000+11:00

for those of you who haven't heard a squeak for me...logical reason. tonsillitis. no idea? wiki it up.it includes anything and everything you need to know, PLUS graphical image for those with weak imagination power. i sound sour.i AM. i mean i'm currently on porridge diet day no. 7..it's not till dayS 10 tt i get better, according to the doctor. now i'm tryin to recall if there were any signs indicating if he was being optimistic to pacify me.(i wanna hear the truth!!)

fingers on a hand is more than enough to count how many days i have left in sg.i was really lookin forward to melb, but after much thought, i doubt me and my tonsils will leave a gd first impression on anyone. the OFFICIAL sch term starts on 26th..before tt, orientation begins. i might actually skip a few unimportant days, if my tonsils(argh) doesn't heal by then.

on to better news. CONGRATS CALISTER! on achieving spanking results for the Os.n
making a mature & firm decision with regard to ur future. i'll b supportin u wadeva the outcome.=) er, you owe me a treat for teaching u a thing or two.

k tt's all i hav to say...i'll b back with more.hopefuly.alluring.photos.

skinned

2007-01-26T21:32:00.000+11:00

let's unveil.my blog.once again! credits go to CRSSH..who is more of a com whiz than i will ever be..had enough of orange? there u go. BLUE ppl.. blueeeeeeee... my EX fav colour...enjoy.

chilli crab.
pastamania.(bake rice bake rice cheese cheese)
pu tien!!!!!!(for yam tt melts in ur mouth... beehoon tt aren't oily, but taste WHOA..)

like a true sgean... got KICK MAN.. lol..

slackerrrrrrr

2007-01-26T00:12:00.000+11:00

a new post, who would hav expected it. hehe..proud to say tt i've at least gone out once with the different peeps who i've not seen for 10 mths.. thank you for the warm reception and the whole" showing blur kwann around".. i noe most of u are probably tied up by school and stuff.. hence i've been understandin and not buggin ya all to accompany me n stuff...-grins-.. who would have thought tt i'll be goin back to melbourne pretty soon..but i SHLD hav figured it out. wakin up at 11am everyday...watchin dramas.readin comics.gorgin myself.of course e day will eventually come wldn't it?

to be honest, i'm pretty excited bout steppin into melb uni for real....haha i've finally found out 2 pretty gd frenz who are gonna do commerce as well! cheers to tt! so..i'll have some peeps to bug... then again, i shld start anew n make new peng you..i wonder who i'll meet this time...

i shld start snappin pics n post them up... hmmm

2007

2007-01-08T01:21:00.000+11:00

blog's a lil dead huh. more than a lil dead in fact.. every1's back in school now.. so i'm kinda catchin up with Jdrama.. Kdrama.. the alphabet drama basically...sure is a nice change frm CSI n stuff.. but the recent survivor(now showin in sg as well) is pretty interestin..had a mini checklist of food to eat.. i'm quite contented with my progress thus far.. in fact all i need is a goodddd SEAFOOD day..(chilli crab oat prawns.. don't get me started) and lunch/dinner at sizzler...n i've completed my food aims..

this yr i'll turn 18! new yr resolutions....

1.pass yr 1 so tt i can move on to yr 2
2.find a part time job like all e other uni students(extra spendin cash won't hurt)
3.save a lil more for shoppin sprees durin e hols
4.be extra careful when makin new frenz
5.look a lil older
6.gain 2kg at least

Spread e joy! hohoho

2006-12-25T15:01:00.000+11:00

christmas once again! i've yet to hear some1 telling me they hate christmas...i reckon the only thing to dislike about it, is the crowds.. other than tt, every1's all smiles.. christmas can sure bring out the kindness and patience in people..i guess tt's y it's special ain't it..just tt extra tolerance and determination to make e day special goes a long way.. i cldn't ask for more this yr...i wld b greedy if i did so..i hope next yr will b as gd as this..or better.hehe

more results

2006-12-16T01:38:00.000+11:00

a chapter in life has closed. yet another opens..it's upsetting that i might not be able to share melb uni/ course experience with all e frenz made.. i'm stunned speechless when they told me their marks.. i noe it means so much to them..it's a make or break situation.. n well.. throughout my academic life, i've learnt that sayin "don't worry, everythin will b fine eventually" wldn't b welcomed to any1 who hasn't met their own expectations.. till now i've yet to find the way to successfully be there for them n yet avoid coming across as pityin them..in fact i feel mean if i said i was happy with my marks..i wanna b there for them, but how do i convey tt msg?

i don't think gettin into melb uni is impossible. it's probably a matter of e amount of work u put in..preparation is vital.. n most importantly. consistency .especially if all marks r counted towards the final grade... in retrospect i kinda get the feeling tt every1 is aware of e amount of work n dedication they've put in..n denyin it is cheatin oneself.. like psych mentions.. i'm probably some1 who believes in an internal locus of control..

but wow.i muz admit, wad a tiring yr...lol i noe i can't live on luck alone.. i can't score without workin my ass off..i wish i had photographic memory though...bleahx. ya right.

i bet some of my trinity frenz think i'm plain kiasu..i muz admit i didn't really like being called tt..i prefer. erm. conscientious. lol..yes yes,i start on essays earlier. i finish all my maths hw..i hav a freakin 100% attendance in all tutorials, i've yet to meet any1 else who does...-.-.. but at the end of e day. all tt effort was for today. to have no worries about my application. more importantly, having no regrets...i hate to regret.

i dunno, it's tough. how can u think of havin fun when u haven't done wad u're required to do?

RESULTS!!!!

2006-12-15T17:02:00.000+11:00

results were released on the 15th dec. at an unearthly time at 4am..but who cares. i was dying to find out... anyway, moment of truth..

Eng : 87
Hist Ideas : 88
Maths 1B : 97
Acc : 89
Psych : 96
Average Best 4 : 93

yay! way beyond wad i had expected.. but i'm over the moon now =) finally i can enjoy e rest of the hols without worryin about my results...come feb i'll be a student of Melbourne University!!! arhhh... k drms can come true.. all that hard work finally paid off..parents r proud( i woke them up at 4am as well lol)..phew.

As for the course i'm taking.. it'll most probably be the bachelor of commerce (finance and accounting)... thought of doing a double degree of law n commerce, but parents reckon i shld concentrate on one thing bcause at e end of e day i'll still have to choose between law or commerce...they noe i hav more passion for commerce than anythin else.. though i must admit, double degree sounds nice doesn't it? then again, 5 yrs!!! besides, who can imagine ME doing a murder trial...

so my next goal is.. completing the course n being eligible for honours!

backaroo! from the kangaroos!

2006-12-14T15:29:00.000+11:00

I"M BACK! after 10 solid mths. I"M BACK! i'mbackbackbakcbackback.. lol k stop it kwann. feels gr8 to b back!although it is a bit too humid for my liking.. BUT i noe i'll get used to it.. after all, aren't we humans built for adaption? GAS general adaption syndrome..

before partyin of course, there's CLEAN UP to do.. my house has seriously aged under the care of my BZ PAPA... so.. i'm sry.. but meetin plans might hav to come to a halt for awhile.. but i'll b free nez wk(err, the later half of nez wk)..therefore,to avoid disappointment. book me. lol... man.. every1's goin to sch soon.. so i hav to make it a point to see them all at least once b4 i go back..miss them truckloads vanloads n carloads...i keep forgettin we're in e middle of dec...

I LOVE E FOOD HERE...my eyes just light up like the christmas decor =).. i'm gonna make sure i gain some weight. i muz i muz. i need about 4 more kg..

and it draws closer....

2006-12-10T21:07:00.000+11:00

2 more days!

i'll be flyin my way back to sg..something tt has been long awaited.stayin in melb for 10 solid months without even visitin at all,nv thought i wld survive.to be honest, my feelings are currently in a blender..on one hand i miss dad, my frenz and food(food food food*chants*)!!! but on the other i've seem to have grown quite fond and attached to melbourne..

Here's a list of things tt i love about melb
1.Trinity college.. i like the lil international community.. with teachers tt rock the lecture theatres and tutorial..
2.walking to school(yes i WALK to school)...eg.to FSC it takes about 15 mins if i were to take my own sweet time..gives me time to reflect and fill my lungs with fresh O2( i must say e air smells really really diff...)which i must say, is REFRESHIN(okok it helps tt the weather is cold n u don't feel as if u've walked 3948034 km)..
3.TV..they r quite generous with the movies.. showing more recent ones.. n the best thing is, they r UNCUT! haha i'm not some pervert.. but sometimes those parts are VITAL in unfolding the story...
4.how enthu the people are, minding their Ps & Qs..
5.this sounds bad,i think i kinda like the imitation asian food..it's really twisted when u first get a taste of it.. but it's pretty unique

but i can do tt NEZ YR.. right now..... SG SG SG SG SG.. i can't wait!!!

time for a break

2006-12-03T22:27:00.000+11:00

exams are finally over! i muz say i'm a bit jittery about my results.. couple of mistakes made in the papers..don't know exactly how much it will cost me.. but i shan't think about it..or at least try not to.. if all goes well, i'm plannin to pursue a commerce degree! to b more specific..finance and accounting..lol a couple of u will stick out ur tongue in disgust.. it's probably not as fun as media n comm n stuff.. but i guess tt's where my passion lies..

hardly any1 believes i look of age to enter uni.. as usual.i went to get some stuff for my valedictory..the lady who was helpin me out was taken aback..

lady: "wow u're graduating? u look REALLY young, how old r u?"
me:( red alert.oh crap. here we go again) "ermm 17"
lady:(drops on the floor, no. i'm jk.) " oo tt's not very young, i totally thought u were like 12 or somethin"
me:(what?!?! i thought i look at least 15.)*what can i do but smile*
lady:(i think she was trying to console me) it's great to look young.. u shld treasure it..
me: (once again)*what can i do but smile*

so i'm juz wonderin.. if i step into uni. will people think i'm some kinda child prodigy? hahaha rite.my mom used to hav this prob too..n she looks old now doesn't she?(oops. mature.)tt proves we are capable of maturing .. it just takes. time.bleahx.

one last paper

2006-11-30T19:08:00.000+11:00

i'm seriously excited. serious! after saturday.. i'll b free beyond my wildest imaginations! accounting paper..i really wanna do well.. coz basically i love e lecturer in charge! she's e wittest teacher ever.. with her lame jokes n stuff.. man accounts would nv be the same without her..it's impossible to sleep in her lectures.. unfortunately i probably won't get to see her anymore coz she's on maternity leave,a cute greek baby is on the way..

12 more days till i fly back to the place i call home...every1's excited about going back.. the msn window proves this.. almost every TC student on my contact list have somethin indicative about going home...

valedictory is on the 5th of december... THE day i graduate.. n watch about 400 others go up on stage to receive certs n all..after that, we're off to different parts of the world..unlike sg,where a reunion is probably a few phone calls away..now that's TC's disadvantage.. so people. treasure e close proximity...lol..

half alive

2006-11-23T14:56:00.000+11:00

maths.lit.hoi. OVER!!
3 more papers to go....
argh.. pls oh pls let me do well...
i'm going back in less than 3 wks...=)
n i can't wait for christmas... lol..

kwann. u shld b studyin!!!

The end of a dramatic experience

2006-11-17T16:03:00.000+11:00

the drama finals are over!!! i'm uber proud of my group..danny(our drama teacher) gave us a reassuring thumbs up sign when we were done.. a HUGE relief.. performing in front of a crowd was frightening in a sense, but the pressure sort of facilitated us to give it our best shot..thks gdness i was finally able to break down at the climax..nv happened during practice.. so... to shawna, yu qi, mabel and zhong yong! gr8 work guys =)

with drama over.. 6 papers to go...exams will end for me on the 2nd of december.. really lookin forward to it...bloggin would cease for awhile... but i'll update if there are any groundbreakin news.. lol.. till then.. i'll be *struggles to say* muggin....

horses make my day

2006-11-06T16:02:00.000+11:00

melbourne cup.. one of the most anticipated spring events is finally here... nope.. it ain't football... it's horse racing.. yes public holiday dedicated to watch horse racing...horses far and wide come to compete.. a day to accessorize urself, or rather ur hair.. with stuff that costs min. a 100 bucks aussie..that towers ur head and tickle or stab other ppl's faces..lol i'm such a party pooper..anyways.. as i have mentioned, it's a mega big thing in aussie, AND/more importantly it gave me a long weekend.. which i m grateful for...did i mention a horse got shot not so long ago.. not just any horse.. probably one of the most prized horses that's about to compete.. gosh.. the price the horse paid for being one of the best runners, or should i say gallopers in the world.. i think i'd rather be a children's pony or something..

did i mention i hate social loafing? like when u work in groups ppl slacken off n stuff? apparently ur sense of responsibility diminishes.. which causes ur fellow grp members to get irritated with u..( i mean duh, who wld wan to wait hours for u b4 starting on the project) not very good for ur rep..to any1 who reads this.. pls pls make it a point to b on time..(10 mins? understandable... 1 hr? no way)

y can't ppl just be responsible.. oh ya, i forgot, there's a reason why there are jails all over the world...please englightenment me.. r they really born with skin that thick or are they without a strand of moral fibre in their bodies..

i wish i didn't care.. i would love to do things according to my whims and fancies...

shades of colours beneath the lense

2006-11-02T11:30:00.000+11:00

it finally finally rained.. after ihavenoideaexactlyhow long, it RAINS!!! although e little droplets of rain would be welcomed by the farmers n stuff(aussie has a major prob with their crops right now).. but tt same rain, is gonna result in our class photo taking session getting cancelled..=( tt's a fine example of how things can be interpreted in two ways...

in leeper library right now.. after a few more wks i wouldn't be able to access this library.. sad.. i kinda like it here.. cozy n all...

ooo i should inform u ppl.. day light saving as begun(darn)... meaning, instead of being 2 hours ahead of sg time.. it's THREE WHOLE HOURS... so yea... it'll b 12 when sg is 9... there goes an hour of my chatting time....

eyes wide open

2006-10-28T12:34:00.000+10:00

listen, nv merely hear.
sometimes we need to take heed of the things others say...
when their comments coincide, be aware...
though it's hard, trust not what u want to believe in, but reality..

freedom runs through my blood when i'm reassured..
what would i do without u bunch..
once again, i'm rescued..
i've learnt my lesson. =)

moving on, happy bday to 2 of my fav OCT babies... wiwi n dada! welcome to the 17 club..

accounts accounts

2006-10-21T22:14:00.000+10:00

p(@@)q!! i finished the whole accountin project in like an hr.. with rigorous checking n all.. no more weird descriptions gettin cut off.. the summaries had proper dates...the undeposited funds were right in place..i feel so accomplished...i guess today was a blessing in disguise.. or e print outs wouldn't b as perfect.. now i can finally move on to other stuff.. like.. argh. writing the report... i think 1 hr will do...

bleahx,i have a tendency to feel uneasy until my work is done...like some obsessive compulsive disorder..it juz has to be to "perfect" or my mind will drive me nuts..if not, i'll nv get to get my relaxation time...

this calls for celebration *opens a packet of cola gummies*

cleanin the rust

2006-10-20T13:42:00.000+10:00

ok updates updates
1. 4 more weeks till e written papers.. it shall all b history on the 2nd of dec!!!
2. 3 more weeks to drama performance exam...
3. few more days till eap presentation...

i can feel the stress mounting.. then again i can't wait for it to b over.. no wait. college experience has been quite fun.. i'll miss it too.. great. i'm confused.. shall update some pics soon.........time for HOI

the 100m dash to finish line

2006-10-09T18:26:00.000+10:00

finally, term 4.. time sure flaps its wings n waits for no one...or have we merely forgotten about the so called "insignificant days" & the various stressful experiences that we have endured..i noe psych has to say somethin about this.. it's a good thing we forget stuff, or else our minds will b messed up... imagine being able to rmb wad u were doin last wk at this time.. haha

to those that are in the midst of promos.. all e best.. to readers who are done n over with theirs.. time to embrace the well deserved freedom..=)for my juniors taking Os..persevere..

as for me.. it's 5 more wks till e start of e my exams..gonna start puttin on my running shoes n head for the starting line now..in other words, intensive muggin..

oh i'm supposed to write 5 random stuff about myself(my bud tagged me)

1. i like to chew my food using the left side of my mouth...it's just more dominant than e right...
2. i have this weird overwhelming urge after e last day of e exams to sit just sit at home to read tons of comics
3. i have never played the night away.. despite wanting to..
4. i still consider pokemon e best ever hand held console game
5. i love orange flavoured tic tacs..

haha done! i noe most of u r bz.. but i tag anyone who has time to finish this....

Last day of my PrECiOuS

2006-10-01T10:38:00.000+10:00

last day of hols... let's declare it a mournin day..
ash had a bbq yesterday.. to celebrate her bday..almost the whole group was there, except for mel, whose still in m'sia i think...

i must say e bbq was quite an experience... firstly, there wasn't a need for charcoal!! second. it was cold. haha..like we were eating e food n freezing at e same time..wad's gd in a sense was that we wld never get our tongues burnt, coz the food would have cooled down quite a bit by e time we devour it..

my ipod took the stage n had its first taste of fame, providing the music of e party.. coz apparently e songs in e other ipod was not to every1's liking..although to me it was listenable.. but mine had songs to please n surprise(in a gd way) e majority..*grins.. glad to noe my taste in music isn't horrendous.. hehe..but it was fun blasting the music..the speakers had some prob so basically the group had to take turns holding and fiddling with it..

after e bbq, e rest went to watch final destination 3(which i was quite tempted to see)..but net,doggie n sam thought otherwise, coz they were in no mood for horror flicks.. so viola! BRIDGE.. contract bridge rocks! u can so feel e tension goin on.. hehe

i'll miss bridge...

final wk to e start of term 4

2006-09-25T21:54:00.000+10:00

i'm addicted to bridge....
n it's e group's fault....
trump, no trump....
thks for being patient with me=P

anti-bioTICs

2006-09-20T11:29:00.000+10:00

wad kinda loser takes anti-biotics for an ulcer?arh.me. i went to the doc coz mom n dad insisted i did.. apparently n thankfully the doc didn't brush me aside(i always tot ulcers were nothin *looks down*).. in fact she was being really sympathetic about it" not having such a gd time are u" i quote...n i simply moaned n tried to smile..she was well aware of my past 2 wks of sheer torture..

5 things i currently wanna do when i get better:
1. chew chew chew. using both sides of e mouth
2. be able to last online till from 8.30-11.30 b4 retreating to bed..
3. i need to buy new jackets for spring( n t-shirts, n mayb a wallet)
4. hang out with my frenz( like eating at tt sg chom chom or somethin)
5. start on accountin grp work n eap presentation(er.. i don't wanna do.. just.. have to)

oh now i rmb.. WELCOME SPRING!!! it's been about 25+ odd degrees here.. love the weather.. just tt i'm too numb to embrace it...i'm practically zombie like

ppl reading, remember to replenish on the h2o.. or else.. suffer the wrath of the ulcer invasion! in addition, slp early, stay stress free as well.. apparently it triggers ulcer too...

Monkey power~

2006-09-18T11:19:00.000+10:00

i feel like a kid again..staring through the window as others run about having fun.. exploring... jumping.. rolling.. kicking..everything..while i'm here watchin them during my hols..

too lazy to start on my eap presentation.. hence i've been renewing my library loans.. hehe.. someone doin e same topic is gonna get pretty pissed..

pink of health...

2006-09-16T10:43:00.000+10:00

this is nuts.. first, i was sick, right thru the exams... n then.. when my hols started n my cough slowly fading away... i developed a astronomical ulcer *stares in disbelief.. it was so bad tt i cldn't open my left eye n e left side of my face was numb...so there i was.. cough cough ouch ouch.. e whole day.. thk god for panadol.. miracle worker... so now i can officially say "yes i've had ucler b4!"..so not worth it..

it's my hol.. i wanna return to my normal state of health..*gulps down barley water.. i promise i'll eat better n drink more water......

p.s thks cali for the blogskin.. u sure hav a knack with these kinda stuff.. all e best for prelims =P

exam kaboom!

2006-09-13T11:34:00.000+10:00

holiday. rules.